Pregnancy is an amazing, beautiful, wholesome experience. It can also be a scary, nerve wrecking experience if you let the “what if’s” get the best of you. In life, there will always be “what if’s” – if you let them into your space, if you internalize them, they will eat you up…consume your every moment. The thing about “what if’s” is that they are pointless, meaningless. They are full of negative energy. You can’t change them, so don’t obsess over them.
Throughout a pregnancy, there is a lot that could go wrong BUT there is so much that could go right. Again, pregnancy is a beautiful, beautiful thing… & I am trying my best not to let the worries get the best of me. We recently had our 16 week appointment, in which they discussed genetic testing with us at length. Whether or not to have genetic testing done is up to personal preference. There’s no right or wrong way to go about it, it’s okay to have it done and choose to be informed and it’s also okay not to have it done. After much conversation, we chose as a couple to not have it done. We weighed the pros and the cons of having genetic testing done, did our research and talked to our doctor in great detail. It wasn’t for us. Our conclusion was that if we discovered there was a chance of our baby having some sort of genetic disorder, we wouldn’t choose to end the pregnancy. We would choose to have our baby & love our baby no matter what. Therefore, to us, and me especially, it wasn’t worth it to have the testing done and then stress the rest of the pregnancy. So far I’ve been fortunate enough to have a wonderful, easy pregnancy and I don’t want that to be ruined. On top of that, I know someone who received a false positive during her pregnancy. She was told that there was a high chance her daughter had Down syndrome, when in fact her daughter did not. She chose not to have amniocentesis completed, as the risk of having that done did not outweigh the benefits for her. Her daughter is now a very healthy, twenty something year old. She spent the rest of her pregnancy a nervous wreck.
With this pregnancy, we are choosing to pray, wait and trust. I want to enjoy this experience as much as I possibly can. I will continue to pray that our little peanut is growing big and strong, I will continue to wait and allow the process to occur as it must, at its own beautiful, perfect speed. I will also continue to trust that everything will be just as it is supposed to. I know that we will be able to handle whatever is presented to us, and that right there gives me great peace.